Unspoken

I wished to say, "don’t you run away from me this time", 

but it’s always too late. 

I wished to say, "don’t you ever forget about me", 

but somehow I think you already did.

I wished to say, "stay the night", 

but you were already gone by then.

I wished to say, "I’m sorry",

but you weren’t there to listen anymore.

I wished to say, "come back to me",

but you were already loving somebody else.

I wished to say, "go fuck yourself",

but all I did was remain silent.

I wished to say, "I want you dead",

but I could never wish you any harm.

I wished to say, "I wanted to erase you from my mind",

but somehow I’d be losing a part of me with it.

I do wish to say now, "what the hell do I do without you?"

But I know I’ll hear only an endless silence.